Panic attacks suck

17 Dec

Can’t… breathe. Can’t… breathe. That is what I feel like when I’m having a panic attack triggered by social situations. This happened today at the library. This particular library is in the ghetto/city which made it even worse. Had my fiancé not been with me at the library I probably would have walked out before doing what I needed to do in there because of all the people inside.

Going to the grocery store is a struggle too. I always have to weave my way around people. I will literally avoid an aisle if there are people in it. Sometimes I walk out without what I need because someone was in the aisle the entire time I was as at the store.

I’ve spent most of my life wondering where I fit in in life. I have always been a quiet person in public. I’ll only talk to you if we’ve known each other for a long time. Heck, even if I’ve known you awhile I still might not feel comfortable talking to you. Now that I am in my mid-20’s I am beginning to wonder if I’ve gone most of my life with an undiagnosed case of mild autism.I can function fine in society aside from the social aspect, which in our society today is a huge thing. Our society puts huge pressure on us to be social and bubbly, especially in the work force. I seriously doubt I could function in a job where I would have to constantly interact with people face to face. I even have trouble talking to people on the phone. I had a job where I had to talk customers through issues, and the pressure I felt was immense. I always felt like if I didn’t get the issue resolved immediately or tell the customer what they wanted to hear than I was doing my job wrong. But more than that, I didn’t want to deal with any issues from the customer. I literally had panic attacks talking on the phone to people I will probably never meet in real life. Whether you meet the person or not is irrelavent. If you can hear their voice on the phone, you are socially connecting to them and I feel the same social pressure I would feel were I talking to them face to face. It’s gotten to the point where I am hesitant to post things on social media, comment on people’s posts, etc. because of social pressure.

And then there’s the burden you put on your family due to social anxiety. I am too afraid to learn how to drive, nor do I have the desire. Someone always has to drive me where I need to go and it is almost always my fiancé. I do not like having to get him to take me places constantly, but we need groceries. Usually he is not bothered by taking me places although I have to admit if I were in his shoes I would be annoyed with me sometimes always having to take someone to a store, even if it was my family. People are not perfect and we all get stressed.

The only way I’ve found to keep everyone happy is through money. I will pay for the gas, pay for the groceries, etc. to make up for the fact that I can’t drive myself places. I know this is not always necessary to pay for things but I feel obligated to do so. If the only way I can contribute is through helping with expenses most of the time, then so be it.

Someone like me needs a lot of alone time to process life in general. I’m not joking when I say I need a couple hours of alone time everyday just to de-stress from life. Thankfully, I am able to work at home while my fiancé works outside of the household, so getting in my couple hours of alone time works out perfectly for us. But by the time he gets home from work, I am ready to talk, talk, talk and he is ready to chill from working all day. I’m ready to go out and do things and he just wants to relax. Which is totally understandable, but can be frustrating at times. He is so amazing about taking me places when I want to get out of the house, sometimes I need to remind myself that just because I am home all day doesn’t mean he wants to automatically go places all the time, he works outside of the home, remember.

Well, that’s all for now. I will post more about this topic another day.

Join Club Skinny, earn a FREE $5 Amazon gift card right away!

19 Jul

Join Club Skinny from Skinny Cow, complete all the required activities, and you will earn enough points to redeem a FREE $5 Amazon gift card. Other retailers include Wal-Mart, Zappos, Banana Republic, and more. You can also earn more points to get higher value gift cards, a Skinny Cow Hoodie, wine glasses, a speaker, a yoga mat, a free Skinny Cow product coupon, and more! Join Club Skinny now.

For sale: Gorgeous 4100+ square foot House in Seneca, SC

18 Jul

This charming 4100+ square foot house nestled in the Stillwater subdivision between Seneca and Clemson could be yours. Boasting five bedrooms, 3.5 baths, a large living room with fireplace, dining room, kitchen with island, and that’s just the beginning. A 17 seat home theater room will make you the envy of the neighborhood. Big windows bring out the house’s beauty. Outside is a three car garage and wood deck. Neighborhood amenities abound including a swimming pool and tennis courts. Trees line the streets, another nod to this house’s Southern location. For more information on this picturesque house, call or text 864-324-1049. Realtors welcome. Please say that referred you when you call.

More pictures of the house:

Living room:

Dining room:


Home theater room:


Three car garage:

TODAY ONLY: Win a free night at La Quinta Inns & Suites (72 winners!)

17 Jul

Today only,  from 8:00 a.m. to 8:00 p.m., you can enter to win two FREE nights at La Quinta Inns & Suites. There will be 72 winners in all, so you have a big chance of winning! Click here to enter.

Review: Kiss Everlasting French Manicure

23 Jun

Fake nails are not something I usually use. My mom is the one who loves to use fake nails. However, I received some fake nails from Influenster to review. They are Kiss Everlasting French Manicure Nails, and I am planning on giving them to someone that will use them. The free fake nails were in my Spring Fling Vox Box from Influenster. I’ve received several of these themed boxes from them. I like that there are usually some things I like, and some things I can give to family and friends to try as well.

I received Kiss Everlasting French Manicure Nails courtesy of Influenster for testing purposes.

Simple way to prevent electrical house fires

16 Jul

It’s really simple to reduce the chances of an electrical fire in your home. You only have to do this once annually. What is it? Learn on the Handyman Blog.

Valentine’s Day on a budget

10 Feb

Valentine's Day on a budget

So, Valentine’s Day is just around the corner. And in this economy, rest assured you CAN have a great Valentine’s Day without breaking the bank. I’ve assembled a few free and cheap ideas you can use on Valentine’s Day to make your day with your honey and/or family a nice one.

1. Make a homemade Valentine’s menu

Skip the restaurant tab for something more personal, special, and most of all a money-saver. Make a “[Your name]’s Diner” Menu for your significant other and put all his favorite meals, drinks, and desserts on the menu and let him pick his meal. The only expense would be to make sure you have all the ingredients on the menu. You can hand-draw a menu by folding a piece of paper in half horizontally, then vertically. I made a quick one to give you some ideas for your Valentine’s Day menu:

Here’s the front side of the menu:

Homemade Valentine's Day menu

And here’s the inside (back is blank but you could always add something if you want- a drawing, personal note, etc.) Note: You can click on the picture to see the original size if you can’t read the text. Just make sure you hit your browser’s back button to come back to this blog article!

Homemade Valentine's Day menu

Or, if you don’t have artistic skills like me (lol) or don’t have the time to design a menu, you can use a free menu template, customize it, and print it out.

2. Make Valentine’s Gift Baskets

Dollar Tree, Dollar General, and Wal-Mart have Valentine’s Day candy priced at $1 and below. Save money by buying several inexpensive chocolates and candies an not buying a pricey gigantic box of chocolates you’ll just regret eating anyway (you know you’ll end up eating at least half of it yourself if you’re a chocolate lover like me). You can buy gift baskets and tins at Dollar Tree. Put all your Valentine’s goodies in your gift basket or tin and attach a Valentine’s Day card which you can also get at Dollar Tree.

3. Have a romantic picnic in the park

Make your man’s favorite meal ahead of time and bring the meal and a blanket to the park for quality time with your special someone.

4. Go to a wine tasting

Chances are, there are some vineyards within driving distance of where you live, and most wine tastings are inexpensive. The one’s I’ve priced are all below ten bucks a person. Finish by buying an inexpensive bottle of wine to take home for a romantic evening with your significant other.

Do you have any other inexpensive Valentine’s Day ideas? Leave them in the comments below. Have a Happy Valentine’s Day!


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